I know too long since the last one, Im sorry lol / Jeska Adkins (Best Friend )Read >>
I know too long since the last one, Im sorry lol / Jeska Adkins (Best Friend )
Kells:
Hello darling. I know its been forever yet again. I wait too long to write to you. Things were rough for awhile. I wasnt sure what was going on with me. I was uncharacteristcly snapping at everyone seemingly causing nonexistant problems. Crying alot...yea I know thats normal lol but more sobbing than usual. Then Jovon came home for a weekend and I had this ridiculous epiphany that I probably should have months ago dealing with Drew and certain people that Ive been spending most of my time with. Things just seem more complicated and forced now....friendships what they once were. The people I love most just seem to be disappearing like flies. Just makes you think ya know? I look back and to this day dont think I have ever been as close to anyone as I was with you. Im sure thats not exactly healthy but hey I admit it lol. Theres only one you. :) Anyways things in the last week seem to have been better. Ive laughed alot more spent alot of time with mom and dad. Taken care of alot of things broke my phone accidentlycontinued this elentless job search. But found time to be with other people and not too much. Been thinking alot about birthdays....21...hmm...katy hits hers last week. Mines still a few months away not sure what to do yet. Im sure Ill figure it out.
Lot of the fams been sick in and out of the hopsital. Been wearing on my mind alot. So I thought I would take a breather and write you. I promise it wont be so long this time.
Gosh Kel wherever has time gone? Today is your 21st birthday and it is your 5th birthday in Heaven. It seems like it was just yesterday that you had your 16th birthday party out in the barn. You picked out a beautiful cake and Mike flipped burgers on the grill. Country music was blasting. Line dancing was going on. You were so happy and excited. :)
I can't help but wonder what you would be doing today to celebrate your birthday. Brownie? Apple Pie? Ice cream? :) I also can't help but wonder what life would have held for you on earth if you were still physically here. Would you be working? Would you be going to school? Would you be off on an adventure living life to its fullest? I'm thinking it would be the last option...you would be on a grand adventure smiling and laughing enjoying life and making friends.
In a sense though you are on the greatest adventure of your life. What has been really cool is you have taken us with you and opened up such an amazing wealth of knowledge to us. That is one of your gifts to us. It has brought us comfort and peace. It doesn't replace the great big squishy hugs you would give us but if we sit still and listen really listen then what you give us is even better than that.
As we celebrate you today Kelli your birthday your life your everything we will be sure to make time to listen. :)
Thinking of your Angel on her Birthday... / Angela -. Daughter To Angel Linda Taylor Read >>
Thinking of your Angel on her Birthday... / Angela -. Daughter To Angel Linda Taylor
Sending Birthday Wishes up to our beautiful heavens above today in honor of your precious Angel. Knowing she is smiling down on all of you that love & miss her so much. God Bless.
Offer you my love and support / Peggy McCaffrey (a grieving mom )Read >>
Offer you my love and support / Peggy McCaffrey (a grieving mom )
Sandy,
How sad it is that we had to meet this way, to have joined a club that no one wants to be long to. I know how hard it is to lose a daughter. I too lost my only child on June 19 2007 due to a car accident. 2 months before her 18th bday (8/25/89) and less than a month after HS graduation. Feel free to contact me @ peg1015@aol.com.
4 years today / Ashly
Kelli wow I cant believe today has been 4 years. This is kind of a very difficult day for a lot of people. I know I really struggle every year it hits June 18 becasue it was the worst day of both our familes lives. I dont know how many times they had to tell me before it stuck in my head that we had lost you Kelli. You were such a good friend too me from the day I moved to the states and I loved your paretns. To this day I will always be so thankful for you. I miss you so much and love you too!!! I will always be thinking of you! Love always Ashly Close
It is your 4th angelversary Kelli, and we have another milestone to deal with. On one hand, my heart continues to break. I so, so miss your squishy hugs and your special pecks on the cheek, forehead, chin and nose. I miss the way you would tuck your head underneath my chin and rest there. I miss your noise. :) I miss you flying in and out of the house. Is dinner ready yet? I could go on and on and make myself a blubbering mess. Because I know you would be sad and shake your head at me for doing that, I'll keep it simple ... I miss everything. I miss you terribly. On the other hand, I know you are always here beside us, just in a different way. Over the last few days, it seems like that has been your mission ... reminding us of that. Some of your reminders have been pretty funny. *** shaking my head at the thoughts *** lol What you won't think of next, lol. You have definitely brought laughter into our hearts through all of your reminders. :)
Today I will focus my thoughts on sweet memories of you. Your smiles. Your laughter. Your sillyness. Your likes. Your dislikes. I may not have had a camera to capture all of the moments, but I sure have them in my heart, as if they were captured yesterday. My heart is full of them. xoxoxo
Thinking of you / Jo-Ann Pacenta Lauren's Mom (Angel family friend )Read >>
Thinking of you / Jo-Ann Pacenta Lauren's Mom (Angel family friend )
Her Smile is in the Summer Her grace is in the breeze She did not leave, she is not gone It's only we that grieve.
It doesn't take a special day To bring you to our minds A day without a thought of you Is very hard to find.
No longer in our hearts to share But in our hearts you're always there The parting and the heartaches No one can ever heal But our memories for safekeeping No one can ever steal. ~ unknown ~
Caramels and Valentine's Day / Mom
This is my Valentine note to you Kelli, full of love and memories...
As I sat sucking and chewing on a homemade caramel this morning, lots of Valentine memories came flooding through my heart. I could see your face as a little girl, along with your two sisters, as the three of you opened up your Valentine cards and your special hearts full of candy. I always loved watching your faces as you opened your cards. I could easily spend a couple of hours looking at cards - not pretty enough, not glittery enough, not right, too much this, too much that - and then I would finally find cards for the three of you. Then I would search for Valentine hearts to fill with candy. Those had to be just right too. :-) Then the search began for the right candy to fill your hearts with and kept your chocolate allergy in mind. After we had watched ET the one year, your favorite candy was Reese Pieces, so I filled your heart with Reese Pieces that year. Year after year, I would come up with something non-chocolate for you - sour gummy worms, sour peach rings, sour cherry balls, gummy bears. :-)
The day finally came when you outgrew your chocolate allergy. You were 12 years old and looking forward to getting your first chocolate Valentine's heart. You were so excited. I did a mixture of chocolate (the good stuff, not the waxy kind) and non-chocolate in your heart that year. I remember the candy that went first - all of the non-chocolate candy, lol. You would nibble on the chocolate candy, and then put the piece back in the heart, lol, always going back to the non-chocolate candy. When I asked you about it, I think you were afraid of hurting my feelings. I reassured you that it is okay not to like something, and I asked you about the chocolate. You told me it wasn't so great. You were so disappointed because it wasn't what you were expecting.
You never did become a chocoholic Kel. You grew to tolerate it and much preferred the milk chocolate over the dark chocolate. You had a love of Fannie May candies, but you preferred their plain caramels and their caramels with the marshmallow center (what were those called again?). I learned to fill your Valentine heart with those caramels. Boy oh boy could you ever eat those two candies. You always loved soft, chewy, buttery caramels, especially my homemade caramels. :-) When you ate the caramels, you would take little bites and then suck on each of the bites to enjoy the buttery goodness, just like I did this morning. You were definitely a happy camper with caramels, and I can see why because I too enjoyed taking little bites of my caramels this morning and sucking on each individual bite.
Beautiful memories. Your smiling face imprinted upon my heart. :-)
Remember when we used to sing that song Kelli? - all of the time during the Christmas season with great big smiles on our faces, each of us trying to outdo the other. Singing carols. Making cookies. Covered in flour. So much fun. Through the tears is a smile on my face and in my heart. Lots of beautiful memories.
For your Christmas present this year, we decided that we would be giving and/or donating to different people/causes to help brighten someone's day. I know you would like for us to do that. So, for you, we have ... given a donation to church to help with the children's program, made another donation to the Covenant House to help kids who have no place to go, given a donation to the APL where we adopted our youngest dog from, and we have given nice tips to the waitresses at our favorite little restaurant. All of these gifts done for you have brightened not only the recipients, but they have also brightened up my days by knowing you would definitely approve of what we have been doing.
We are going to make this an annual gift giving for you. Two things which were so very close to your heart - helping your friends and helping/taking care of animals. By choosing Covenant House and our local APL, we are giving for you. We are helping teenagers who have nowhere to turn and the Covenant House gives them a home, as you did by listening and also by bringing your friends to our home for a meal and a temporary safe place. Our local APL takes such good care of the dogs/puppies and cats/kittens, and I know you would like for us to continue supporting the animals. You always had such a soft heart for anything with four legs, including the bigger ones (meaning horses). :-) Maybe next year, we'll adopt a horse rescue also. Yes, we'll do that too. :-)
Merry Christmas Kelli with love from Mom, Dad, Christina, and Rose. xoxoxo
Merry Christmas Kel / Kayde
I just want to take this time to say Merry Christmas to Kelli. To say that I have missed you since the day you left and will forever have you in my heart. I see you each and everytime I look into the sky at night and the stars are shining bright. I live my life now to the fullest and smiling at everything even if I want to cry knowing that, that is exactly what you yourself would have done. I miss and love you very much. Merry Christmas. Close
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